I'm sick and tired of feeling like I care more about my friends than they do about me. I'm tired of always being the one who makes the effort to keep in contact. I'm tired of being messed around with people cancelling on me last minute with a lame excuse. And I'm tired of people being nice to my face but bitchy behind my back for no good reason.
Right now I can only think of two people who I know I can always rely on and who are true friends to me. The rest of them all seem to take turns in messing me around and generally making me feel crap.
Well no more!!! I'm not going to let these people get me down any more. I am a nice person and I deserve to have friends who aren't just my friends when it's convenient for them. If I've done something you don't like then tell me, we might scream and shout at each other but if we make it out the other side then it'll only strengthen our friendship. If you don't want to be my friend and don't really care about me or our friendship then by all means don't contact me, but don't expect me to come running to your aid anymore.
In keeping with this idea of having friends who are true friends I'm also going to contact a couple of people from my school who I've lost contact with. I know that they're genuinely lovely people and I just wish we'd been closer so I'm going to try and rectify that!
